I identify as transmasculine genderqueer.
And I’ve been working with my therapist on options that I have for hormone therapy.
I want a “partial transition” as I think some people have called it.
I want a more masculine appearance. In my face, my body. A little bit more body hair. I want a lower voice, but not for it to drop. I guess you could say I want a more androgyny voice. I do want a more muscular appearance. I do not however want to grow a micropenis.
I was wondering if you had any suggestions?
About partial transitioning, different kinds of t, any resources, advice, passing tips, etc.?
I started on my journey of gendered self-discovery from a place of depression, angst, and the nagging feeling that I didn’t quite know everything there was to know about myself. It’s been almost three years since I started questioning myself and my gender identity, and I now find myself at an important milestone: being officially on testosterone. For many, this is sort of a penultimate experience. It marks the start of the physical change from female to male. Feminine to masculine.
In this post I want to address two important themes: how I came to the decision to take testosterone, and what I like to call The Waiting Game. The first topics is important not because it’s about me, but because everyone’s process is different. Sometimes, the decision to transition or take T mirrors that of hundreds of trans* folk’s decisions. Other times it might not be so clear-cut, and we might find ourselves struggling to see ourselves in others and their processes.
Q&A: I’ve been on a low dose of T for 1.5 years. With an increased dose will changes quicken up? Is it possible I’ve gotten all changes already?Posted: October 3, 2012
I’ve been on a fairly low dose (unintentionally) of testosterone for about a year and a half. I am the only transsexual patient my doctor has treated so it was difficult to find out a starting dose, and what to increase it to. I was taking injections of .8ml of 100mg/ml and have increased to 1ml about a month ago. I’ve gotten most of the changes already (facial hair, body hair, fat redistribution) with how long I’ve been on it, but I still find that some changes (voice, genital growth) have been a lot slower.
With my increased dose (which will continue to be increased until I’m at the “regular” dose) should I assume that my voice dropping/genital growth would quicken up? Is it possible that I’ve gotten all the changes I will get already?
For an introduction to Testosterone Hormone Replacement Theraphy (T HRT), see the first part of the series.
Why Take Low Dose?
Hormones are gradual. This can be very frustrating for people who can’t wait for the changes. But some of us approach the idea of hormones with a bit more trepidation, and would rather take things slow.
Some people simply want to take extra precautions with their body. Others may be struggling to figure out what their identity means to them while undertaking a physical transition, thus trying to reconcile the two. Moreover, it’s common to hear of people who want certain effects of hormones but not others, and want to find the right balance. Whether it’s because we’re not sure hormones are right for us, or because we’re not sure what we want out of hormones, or we just want to be extra careful, taking a low dose is a way of testing the waters, toe by toe.
The primary effects of Testosterone have been detailed in countless blogs and articles, including mine. Browsing Tumblr or YouTube you will come across personal stories as people chronicle their journey on their first weeks, months, and years on T. Here’s a brief recap, just in case.